30 December 2011

Look at the Shape We're In...

No alarm this morning, and the universe didn't have much to say to me until now.....


One of the best songs ever. Period. 

Whilst today has not been an emo kind of day, life tends to jump up and down and smack you upside the head when you let something slip. Today, property taxes. Big surprise. We've had a difficult year, trying to play financial catch-up from the year prior.....yes, it's taken all of THIS year and some help from family to get to a point where we could even begin to breathe. But the place where we live, the county, the township, the state, even, just sucks ass for the majority of the time. I see a move in the not-so-distant future, I really do. Maybe a move OUT of the country, even. This shit just gets old. 

YET, I refuse to allow anyone in a position of ""power"" to bring me down. I struggled for YEARS to get the job I have now, and it's not a job that would make anyone's momma proud or buy her lots of bling, it's just a job. That's all it is, and all it ever will be unless and until I make it more.

In other news, this song can now be recorded in the annals of history as the first song me and my beloved ever "jammed" to, in his words....I play by ear, and he was struggling with the bass line, so I played it for him on our piano....then he played it, we played it together....thus, it was jamming, with an 'ing'.  Because I'm old, and that's how I say it.  

I guess today, the universe would like me to know two things: 

1. I need to get shit in order for the upcoming year. 
2. No matter how hard, or how often, people try to bring us down, they just cannot unless we allow them to do so. And I am not allowing anyone to rain on my deli-laden parade. Not today. Not tomorrow. Never. Give it up.  I've overcome bigger obstacles than this and come out on top. On top, I shall remain. 

Below, the lyrics. Read them. Beautifully written, composed, performed and listened to...especially loud. In the car or at home. 



Foo Fighters

I should have known, 
That it would end this way, 
I should have known, 
There was no other way, 
Didn't hear your warning, 
Damn my heart gone deaf

I should have known, 
Look at the shape you're in, 
I should have known, 
But I dove right in, 
One thing is for certain, 
As I'm standing here, 
I should have known.

Lay your hands in mine, 
Heal me one last time, 
Though I cannot forgive you yet, 
No I cannot forgive you yet, 
And leave my heart in debt

I should have known, 
I was inside of you, 
I should have known, 
There was that side of you, 
Came without a warning, 
Caught me unaware

I should have known, 
I've been here before, 
I should have known, 
Don't want it anymore, 
One thing is for certain, 
As I'm still standing here, 
I should have known.

Lay your hands in mine, 
Feel me one last time, 
Though I cannot forgive you yet, 
No I cannot forgive you yet, 
To leave my heart in debt
No I cannot forgive you yet
No I cannot forgive you yet
To leave my heart in debt
I should have known

Maybe you was right, 
Didn't wanna fight, 
I should have known, 
Couldn't read the signs, 
Couldn't see the light, 
I should have known, 
Though I cannot forgive you yet, 
No I cannot forgive you yet, 
To leave my heart in debt, 
No I cannot forgive you yet, 
No I cannot forgive you yet, 
To leave my heart in debt, 
No I cannot forgive you yet, 
No I cannot forgive you yet, 
To leave us all in debt, 
I should have known. 

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